Life now iv gained a personal trainer and a different way of thinking

I bit the bullet and got a PT trainer. I had my free consultation and knew it was something I needed to do and I wanted to get started straight away. Had my first PT session last Thursday (1 week tomorrow) and enjoyed it. I felt amazing after knowing this is the start of healthy living and exercising and benefiting from it. Yes I felt sick most of it (thats because it was early and I didnt eat before the session) but I kept going even though I was half dead. I was then given some nutrition information on what sort of foods to have in the cupboard and what I should be eating macros wise. Macros means Carbs, Proteins and fats. I have managed to keep track of this on myfitnesspal. I have stuck to the calories I should have on rest days and training days and trying to hit my macros every day. Its taking a while to get my head round it but hopefully when I am fit and healthy I will know what I need to fuel my body without having to track it. I have had a very challenging weekend with the husband eating pizza and sweets! I have managed to stick to all my healthy meals and hardly eaten crisps and junk food....also no fizzy pop! My day off was Sunday but I didn't go overboard and didn't get much unhealthy food as it was all gone by the time I got round to eating! I also didn't feel guilty for it either. As well as the nutrition I have been given some work out plans to do in the gym. I was unable to do much with my arms until Sunday they were dead from the lifting that I wasn't used to. I went swimming Saturday to ease it then managed my first work out on my own. I sweated more following this plan than going in the gym and just using the machines. I felt the benefit. I had my second PT session yesterday and still buzzing today. I felt I was able to put more in on an evening work out as I had been fueling with healthy food over the last few days. It was hard work but then PT sessions are meant to push the boundaries or there wouldn't be any point! I am going camping on Sunday for a couple of days and will not be tracking anything food wise on myfitnesspal but I will be taking some healthy snacks as I dont want it to be 2/3 days of pure junk food. I am off to the gym tomorrow night and Friday and will see how I am for Saturday. I will be walking a lot while away I wont be on my phone were taking our camera so I am going to focus on having a relaxing holiday enjoying nature and time with my husband and family. Everyone seems to sit on their mobiles these days its sad really! We are camping on a cliff top right next to the beach I will be going for a paddle every day in the sea....even if its raining!

I know its going to take time to get in shape and be healthier but I am ready to do it properly with no quick fixes and no silly diets. I am finally at a place where I believe I can stay for the rest of my life on this journey. I am avoiding weighing myself and getting disheartened as it wont reflect any of the hard work I have put in yet. I cant wait to get measured after a month to see inch loss! I want to turn my body in to a lean healthy body I accept I will never be skinny and skinny aint sexy!

I know I would get a few comments from people about paying for a personal trainer such as " thats expensive" "pay me £25 and il show you" "I couldnt afford that every week".

I dont think it is expensive I am investing in my health...how can you compare health to money?
I would not pay anyone other than a trained professional to show me the right way!
Finally its not that I can afford a PT I am turning the money I would use on junk food and takeaways each week to have someone push me to my limits for an hour instead and benefit. I am cutting back spending my money on other things such as clothes, bags, shoes and avoiding the staff shop. Why bother clothes shopping right now when I want to drop sizes seems silly buying something I wont be able to wear for long! And lastly I dont have to explain myself to anyone if I dont want to :)

A week in to this new way of life I am feeling happier than I have in a long time and I am positive and cheering myself on. I will ignore anyone that tries to bring me down from this happy place I am finally ready to settle at!

The start of something amazing or another failed attempt?

So tomorrow I am taking the plunge and having an hours free consultation with a personal trainer. I am going to be using them once a week at £25 a pop. If I go with someone its half price but I think I need some sessions on my own first for personalized work outs.They are also going to give nutrition advice in the price. I am going to still follow slimming world as much as I can but with the help of a qualified nutritionist she can pin point where I am going wrong apart from the obvious chocolate and pizza! Some people think £25 is a lot per week but that £25 I am spending already on junk food and takeaways. Id rather use it on something to benefit me. I am not just aiming to loose weight, I want to feel healthy and fit. I dont want to be Mrs Muscle of the universe but I wouldn't mind having some strong limbs and be toned all over. I want to improve my back issues and I believe they are here because of the weight gain over the last few years. This is going to be a life style change for good. I am not going to focus too much on the scales but more on the inches lost and how I feel in clothes. I love fashion and I hate that I cant wear over half of it because id look a plonker and would not feel confident. I want to get to a place I feel confident in what I wear and not hiding in floaty dresses and leggings. I want to go for long runs and work out and push myself further without wanting to throw up and pass out. I know this is only the beginning and its going to be hard work but I know it will be worth it to be my happy self again. I am prepared to drink less alcohol and eat less junk I need to train my mind as well as my body. I think a lot of self love will be required and lots of photos for comparison on the long journey ahead. Yes I will be £100 down each month but if it puts a smile back on my face and I dont get breathless as soon as i get the blood pumping why would I not invest in myself.

There is going to be lots more photos of food on my slimming world account and comparison photos.

Ready to start this Journey ahead of me for many miles to come! I will ignore negativity and I will learn self love as the last year or so I have always been hard on myself and putting myself down a lot. This is my body and I need to work with it to be the best it can. I will surround myself with supportive people as much as I can. The person that has had to see me beat myself up and see my behavior with food become negative is my amazing husband. He has done nothing but support me even though my thought process is all over the place. I have yo yo'd from one diet to the other and he has put up with my obsession for long enough. I am ready to give him a break from all this nonsense once and for all.

Wish me luck I will not give in like I have done for the last 3 years!!!