So tomorrow I am taking the plunge and having an hours free consultation with a personal trainer. I am going to be using them once a week at £25 a pop. If I go with someone its half price but I think I need some sessions on my own first for personalized work outs.They are also going to give nutrition advice in the price. I am going to still follow slimming world as much as I can but with the help of a qualified nutritionist she can pin point where I am going wrong apart from the obvious chocolate and pizza! Some people think £25 is a lot per week but that £25 I am spending already on junk food and takeaways. Id rather use it on something to benefit me. I am not just aiming to loose weight, I want to feel healthy and fit. I dont want to be Mrs Muscle of the universe but I wouldn't mind having some strong limbs and be toned all over. I want to improve my back issues and I believe they are here because of the weight gain over the last few years. This is going to be a life style change for good. I am not going to focus too much on the scales but more on the inches lost and how I feel in clothes. I love fashion and I hate that I cant wear over half of it because id look a plonker and would not feel confident. I want to get to a place I feel confident in what I wear and not hiding in floaty dresses and leggings. I want to go for long runs and work out and push myself further without wanting to throw up and pass out. I know this is only the beginning and its going to be hard work but I know it will be worth it to be my happy self again. I am prepared to drink less alcohol and eat less junk I need to train my mind as well as my body. I think a lot of self love will be required and lots of photos for comparison on the long journey ahead. Yes I will be £100 down each month but if it puts a smile back on my face and I dont get breathless as soon as i get the blood pumping why would I not invest in myself.
There is going to be lots more photos of food on my slimming world account and comparison photos.
Ready to start this Journey ahead of me for many miles to come! I will ignore negativity and I will learn self love as the last year or so I have always been hard on myself and putting myself down a lot. This is my body and I need to work with it to be the best it can. I will surround myself with supportive people as much as I can. The person that has had to see me beat myself up and see my behavior with food become negative is my amazing husband. He has done nothing but support me even though my thought process is all over the place. I have yo yo'd from one diet to the other and he has put up with my obsession for long enough. I am ready to give him a break from all this nonsense once and for all.
Wish me luck I will not give in like I have done for the last 3 years!!!
Love you ❤ xxx
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