Peace at last - goodbye diets and diets talk

So it finally hit me about how much time and money I have wasted over the years on diets and fitness . I have done the slimfast diet, the Cambridge diet, weight watchers, slim and save, detox, slimming world, 5:2 diet and calorie counting. Do they work? Yes if you stick to them! The weight goes straight back on and more each time you stop following one. Was I happy? No I was miserable! So now it's about removing all this diet crap from my mind and around me and just be me again. I have been bothered about my weight and size since I was a teenager and now it's an unhealthy habit. I have chucked anything diet related out and have had to unfollow some accounts on Instagram so I didn't get sucked back in. I recently came across a photo with diet buzz words that signal you're still on a diet:
Cheat meal
Clean eating
Deserve
Cleanse
Low fat
Low carb
Skinny recipe
Meal plan
Quit sugar
Challenge
Bad/good food
Flexible dieting
Restrict
Diet
Approved food
Earn
Detox



I have used the majority of these words and I also hear it from the people around me. I am going to enjoy my holiday and eat what I want guilt free. When I'm back I'm going to carry on eating what ever I want to keep fuelling me but I will be exercising slightly more due to doing hardly anything lately. So there will be no diet talk I'm not being "good" or "bad" I am being Michaella and eating what I want. I want to look after my body and nourish it and I'm going to love it whatever size I am. The scales have been moved I don't need to know what weight I am. I guess il have to now change my blog name! I will be focusing more on fashion and experimenting with food and socialising a little more!

Life since Personal Training...

I am going to be honest here....it lasted 6 weeks. I really did try hard to track my food and do the work outs 2/3 times a week. I enjoyed the PT sessions I wish I could of afforded 3 a week! Since the 6 I had the cancel the two I had paid and wont be able to afford any again in the near future. I have cut back on things and thought I could afford it but I cant.

Rhodes is in two weeks and I need spending money for that. A car took my number plate off with their car so that's an extra £55 I didn't need to spend and just the life of bills etc. I had eaten well for 6 weeks and not much bad food in between but for the last week or so its been terrible. Not terrible but horrific! I wont lie I have enjoyed it, I don't feel guilty but I feel unfit and unhealthy and now my clothes are tight and I am heading to a size 18. We go on holiday in exactly 16 days so from tomorrow I am firmly following slimming world ( minus processed food) and exercising when I can.

When we return from Rhodes I will still be following slimming world and exercising most evenings as Sam has been offered a new job which means I wont see him much in the evenings. I wont have an excuse then as I cant blame Sam (even though its my fault) and I can exercise as much as I like. I know your thinking well Slimming world isn't free..its not but its £5 a week which isn't much and it feels like I am coming home. I get bored easily of tracking calories and counting weight watchers points. I will also be measuring myself once a month to see inch loses as the scales only measure pounds lost and this time I wont get angry if it doesn't shift one week when im being 100% good.

I will be honest from the start with any struggles etc I know its not easy its a long journey but I will get there in the end :)